I am officially closing my xanga down.
At least for awhile.
Who knows, I might get a new one.
Even if I do, it's going to be private, though.

My livejournal is keeping me sane these days.
I'm sorry, xanga, and the wonderful readers of my xanga.

If you want, you can definitely ask for my livejournal. But, it's friends only, so, that means you would need a livejournal account, as well.
And it all depends on if I even trust you, because I write some personal stuff in there that I might not want certain people reading.

So, goodbye for however long.
Maybe only a few weeks or maybe much longer.
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Currently Reading PostSecret : Extraordinary Confessions from Ordinary Lives By Frank Warren see related

Today is such a beautiful and gorgeous day. Birds are chirping, the sun is shining, the sky is blue, there's a light breeze so it isn't too hot out, it's just perfect.
School was so boring today. It went by so slowww.
I just read Catcher in the Rye most of the time, and the PostSecret book.
Oh. Straight A's.
I think my parents are really starting to believe me when I say I CANNOT concentrate at all when I am in regular schooling, and that it's not because I am lazy. The teachers are fuckheads and my peers are the same and they un-motivate me to do anything. If I was even homeschooled I would have no trouble and I wouldn't have gone through more than half of the shit I have gone through in the past.

I can't get over how amazing the weather is today.
I love having the windows rolled down during a car ride and just feeling the wind hit your face and your hair flying around everywhere, becoming a complete and total mess, but you just don't care because of the great feeling. And it adds to the intensity of this feeling when one of your favorite songs are blaring out of your headphones.

I miss a lot of people. =(
 

Things are decent. Not fantastic, not shitty.

I really don't have anything to say except that each day I'm learning more about the value of life and that I need to slow my thoughts down, because I'm so young and I have all my life to figure things out and find somebody.
But I can't help but to get extremely jealous when I see my friends content with theirselves and their grades and lives and boyfriends and everything, and I only find myself wishing I were as lucky as they are.

I really got lucky with the school situation, though. I'm doing really well in Alt. School and still getting credits.

Good to know that if I ever need attention all I have to do is die.
Brand New is amazing.
 

What's new with Amber, you ask?
Nothing really. Except that I'm no longer with Cory. I feel like a bitch, but oh well.
My hate for people at school still grows more and more each day, even when I am in Alt. School.
Sometimes I'm afraid that I'm incapable of loving somebody. Either because I've already loved someone too much, or just because I can't.
The only person I can see myself loving all my life is Jacinda, as lame and lesbian as that sounds, it's true.
GAHH. I hate xanga. I hate how I hate xanga. I don't really hate xanga, I just hate the fact that I feel like I can never write in here anymore. Especially since how long I have had this.
I'm off to decorate my walls with posters and pictures and magazine clippings.